I'm a effing Clown

Like a clown i draw on a pretend smile,
so everyone else is happy.
Underneath that smile,scars and bruises,
something only makeup can cover.

The sky is blue,likie my veins only less abused.
i cant stop staring at the sky,
you look back,only at a less prettier sight.

I cant help but draw smiley faces all over my books,
i dont know why,maybe its because you are not around anymore.

And that sky soo blue...

My smile fades somedays,the world sees the truth.
My depression spread like waves,
although its none of their business.
I wish tears could be controlled,like puppets

We are all clowns on the inside,some just need more makeup than the others........

Back to square one

Well hey
i'm back:]
anyway i feel really good coming back to post on my own blog^^
comfortable,no pressure or whatever.
Well i had a combined blog with someone whom i thought was the right one for me
but end up his not and yupp dont wanna talk much about it.
I dont feel good though but i'm relieved.
I guess i'm gonna be alone for the time being.no more RS thingy
I dont know how to trust anyone anymore.
i was once ridicuslously hurt by a effing jerk,
i'm not gonna get hurt again.
so yupp^^
i'm fine though,me and him are friends again although there's alittle awkwardness
but its okay,we're fine=D
and i'm really happy to be friends with him again^^
We chatted on phone yesterday night=D
we're quiet but was fun=D
Hahah^^
well,took some photos reccently but not gonna upload them here.
its all on my FB & Tagged^^
Yupppss
And i've been really addicted to drawing clowns lately^^
Hahah,i'm random i know.