I'm a effing Clown

Like a clown i draw on a pretend smile,
so everyone else is happy.
Underneath that smile,scars and bruises,
something only makeup can cover.

The sky is blue,likie my veins only less abused.
i cant stop staring at the sky,
you look back,only at a less prettier sight.

I cant help but draw smiley faces all over my books,
i dont know why,maybe its because you are not around anymore.

And that sky soo blue...

My smile fades somedays,the world sees the truth.
My depression spread like waves,
although its none of their business.
I wish tears could be controlled,like puppets

We are all clowns on the inside,some just need more makeup than the others........

Back to square one

Well hey
i'm back:]
anyway i feel really good coming back to post on my own blog^^
comfortable,no pressure or whatever.
Well i had a combined blog with someone whom i thought was the right one for me
but end up his not and yupp dont wanna talk much about it.
I dont feel good though but i'm relieved.
I guess i'm gonna be alone for the time being.no more RS thingy
I dont know how to trust anyone anymore.
i was once ridicuslously hurt by a effing jerk,
i'm not gonna get hurt again.
so yupp^^
i'm fine though,me and him are friends again although there's alittle awkwardness
but its okay,we're fine=D
and i'm really happy to be friends with him again^^
We chatted on phone yesterday night=D
we're quiet but was fun=D
Hahah^^
well,took some photos reccently but not gonna upload them here.
its all on my FB & Tagged^^
Yupppss
And i've been really addicted to drawing clowns lately^^
Hahah,i'm random i know.

Thinking of You

The way I blush when I think of you,
The way I smile when I remember your words
The way I wanna go to bed early,
Just so I can dream of you-

The way I wanna hold your hand,
The way I write your name on my papers
The way my heart beats faster,
And the way I feel when I imagine you with me-

I'm just like every other girl,
Who's ever wanted to be held by someone else-
And I'm just like every story,
Hoping for a love-filled ending.

So we look like Sid and Nancy,
Walking together hand-in-hand-
And I couldn't have been happier.

Hey

I'm back posting:D
well nothing much really lately.
Was supposed to meet B.J at bishan but on the way there,
i tripped and fell in a effing smelly drain.
EWWW*
Of course you cant expect me to meet her with smelly drain smell
so i cab home, before that i tried to call her but my stupid phone shit itself.
So i just went home.
And yeah.here i am.
Btw i smells good now xD Giggle*
Anyway i did umm,sort of a spell thing yesterday night.
well it was to reveal what someone think of you.
so yeah,i tried it on someone.
unfortunately it didn't work,Hahah.
but yeah was kinda fun.
Talk to brendon on the phone and then he hung up.
Stupid Him!!
So yeap..

Oh oh,And S.Y my phone's shitting itself
so i didn't reply your message.
SORRY=p
And yup,stay cheerful,S.Y xD
Loves*

Hey

So yep,something huge-gigantic happened yesterday.
i'm not going post it though
its not a good thing.
Well,Thanks to all those who called me yesterday,i appreciated:]
Thanks Tammy:D
Thanks Richard:D
Thanks Britt:D
Thanks Jake and Shane:D
I'm glad that i have you guys:}
Anw,i spent whole night crying,i know right.
i fell asleep around 7am in the morning.
I look like a zombie man!
Sigh....anw,it doesn't matter anymore.
So yeah,Deep Breath* I'm gonna move on:D
And Sorry Bestie,i didn't tell you,thats because i dont know how to.
So yeah.
And i miss you(bestie),jamaine and min ming!
Hang out soon:}}
Well i'm starting my home tution soon:}
Will be quite busy:(
So yup,thats about it
Toodles:D

Hey:D

its been a month
I'm back!
well,i've been really slack after i've quit my course=p
I have not started on my study yet,Hahah.
Hahah,i'm gonna get my ass whack by SOMEONE:D
Mmmm,nothing much happen lately.
So yeah.
my tutor is here.
gotta go
:D

Hey

Its been quite some time since i last posted.
its been good lately.
Was busying doing assesments.
My brain juice is almost out because of those assesments.
Well i'm starting my science tution next week.
Cant wait...
Hee HeesxD
So i was browsing my sis's friends blogs
And i really wanna tell them this>>GET A LIFE!
they were like spamming each other's blogs with vulgarities.
Sigh....
little kids...
Anyway,i just woke up,meeting bestie later in the evening.
nothing much
so yeah
thats about it:DD