I'm a effing Clown

Like a clown i draw on a pretend smile,
so everyone else is happy.
Underneath that smile,scars and bruises,
something only makeup can cover.

The sky is blue,likie my veins only less abused.
i cant stop staring at the sky,
you look back,only at a less prettier sight.

I cant help but draw smiley faces all over my books,
i dont know why,maybe its because you are not around anymore.

And that sky soo blue...

My smile fades somedays,the world sees the truth.
My depression spread like waves,
although its none of their business.
I wish tears could be controlled,like puppets

We are all clowns on the inside,some just need more makeup than the others........

Back to square one

Well hey
i'm back:]
anyway i feel really good coming back to post on my own blog^^
comfortable,no pressure or whatever.
Well i had a combined blog with someone whom i thought was the right one for me
but end up his not and yupp dont wanna talk much about it.
I dont feel good though but i'm relieved.
I guess i'm gonna be alone for the time being.no more RS thingy
I dont know how to trust anyone anymore.
i was once ridicuslously hurt by a effing jerk,
i'm not gonna get hurt again.
so yupp^^
i'm fine though,me and him are friends again although there's alittle awkwardness
but its okay,we're fine=D
and i'm really happy to be friends with him again^^
We chatted on phone yesterday night=D
we're quiet but was fun=D
Hahah^^
well,took some photos reccently but not gonna upload them here.
its all on my FB & Tagged^^
Yupppss
And i've been really addicted to drawing clowns lately^^
Hahah,i'm random i know.

Thinking of You

The way I blush when I think of you,
The way I smile when I remember your words
The way I wanna go to bed early,
Just so I can dream of you-

The way I wanna hold your hand,
The way I write your name on my papers
The way my heart beats faster,
And the way I feel when I imagine you with me-

I'm just like every other girl,
Who's ever wanted to be held by someone else-
And I'm just like every story,
Hoping for a love-filled ending.

So we look like Sid and Nancy,
Walking together hand-in-hand-
And I couldn't have been happier.

Hey

I'm back posting:D
well nothing much really lately.
Was supposed to meet B.J at bishan but on the way there,
i tripped and fell in a effing smelly drain.
EWWW*
Of course you cant expect me to meet her with smelly drain smell
so i cab home, before that i tried to call her but my stupid phone shit itself.
So i just went home.
And yeah.here i am.
Btw i smells good now xD Giggle*
Anyway i did umm,sort of a spell thing yesterday night.
well it was to reveal what someone think of you.
so yeah,i tried it on someone.
unfortunately it didn't work,Hahah.
but yeah was kinda fun.
Talk to brendon on the phone and then he hung up.
Stupid Him!!
So yeap..

Oh oh,And S.Y my phone's shitting itself
so i didn't reply your message.
SORRY=p
And yup,stay cheerful,S.Y xD
Loves*

Hey

So yep,something huge-gigantic happened yesterday.
i'm not going post it though
its not a good thing.
Well,Thanks to all those who called me yesterday,i appreciated:]
Thanks Tammy:D
Thanks Richard:D
Thanks Britt:D
Thanks Jake and Shane:D
I'm glad that i have you guys:}
Anw,i spent whole night crying,i know right.
i fell asleep around 7am in the morning.
I look like a zombie man!
Sigh....anw,it doesn't matter anymore.
So yeah,Deep Breath* I'm gonna move on:D
And Sorry Bestie,i didn't tell you,thats because i dont know how to.
So yeah.
And i miss you(bestie),jamaine and min ming!
Hang out soon:}}
Well i'm starting my home tution soon:}
Will be quite busy:(
So yup,thats about it
Toodles:D

Hey:D

its been a month
I'm back!
well,i've been really slack after i've quit my course=p
I have not started on my study yet,Hahah.
Hahah,i'm gonna get my ass whack by SOMEONE:D
Mmmm,nothing much happen lately.
So yeah.
my tutor is here.
gotta go
:D

Hey

Its been quite some time since i last posted.
its been good lately.
Was busying doing assesments.
My brain juice is almost out because of those assesments.
Well i'm starting my science tution next week.
Cant wait...
Hee HeesxD
So i was browsing my sis's friends blogs
And i really wanna tell them this>>GET A LIFE!
they were like spamming each other's blogs with vulgarities.
Sigh....
little kids...
Anyway,i just woke up,meeting bestie later in the evening.
nothing much
so yeah
thats about it:DD

All Time Low

They're really funny
Hahah
the title of the song is Coffee Shop
I Love All Time Low!!
Hahahah
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMekefHmLVE

anyway,i just woke up.Yawn*
yesterday night,i dreamt of me falling down the stairs.
ouch*
Hahah.
I'm being random this days
browsing random people's profile and saying Hi to random people.
Thats because i'm bored!
Well,i'm on msn with josh again:D
Hmm,what else....
i think thats about it.
Byeee

Hey

I had a dream,i dreamt of a huge giantic slimy monster coming after me
Oh,that really freak the ass out of me.
God...
well anyway,i'm on msn with josh,
we're talking about.....
umm,basically everything we can think of.
Not that entertain but it was fun,Hahah
Hmmm,what else....
Oh,my course attachment starts next monday.
Which means I'll have to be up like 5 or 6 in the morning again.
Damn...
What else what else....
Oh oh,went out with bestie yesterday,had dinner infact thats the only meal i had the whole day
at a korean restraunt.
Yeah,was fun,tasty and satisfied.
And then we head home,and guess what,it took 2-3 hours for us to get home.
those buses were so packed.
We got so pissed,in the end we squeeeeeezzzzed ourselves into the bus
And here we are at home,Hahah.
Today,i'm gonna stay home,sitting infront of the comp.
Or just laze around....
i'm beginning to rot.
i smell,i'm not shower yet.
but i've brushed my teeth.
i wanna eat brownies
Hahah,i'm random
Ooh,these songs are awesome by katy perry
I just love her,Hah
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdmHkdvzr6E
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Eb0_MSzPG0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v1rAUlFCKOI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1DQs_aPcTU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-8t9P5GBf4
well yeah,thats about it

Rick's music:}

Hey
Went to the hospital for my eye appointment.
Was good but i have to go on a surgery on july.
so yeah.
Just a minor one nothing big.
So dont worry friends:}
Oh,my friend rick made a music
its called CHOIRS
Here
http://www.zshare.net/audio/5897443894c11c4a/
Its cool:D
yeah,thats about it:}

Move on

I'm moving on.
There will be no more deals or waiting.
Although i'm not feeling good right now
i will try to cheer myself up
So yeah
Healing in process........



Okay,i'll be on holiday from 4th may to 24th may
because of the swine flu thing,Yay!!
I wanna go movies and shopping.
Weehay!
And yesterday,finally i get to chat with josh
I miss talking to him.
Hahah
He said words like "fresh"
which means cool.
Hahah
i love that word
Hahahah
But i love chatting with him(josh)more.
So yeah,thats about it:}

P.S Dont ask me what happen or whatever cause i dont wanna talk about it.Sorry.
And also,dont mention anything regarding him infront of me or behind me.Hah.

Happy birthday bestie:D

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BESTIE!!

Here's the video:}
i've no time to upload it yesterday
plus,it takes an hour plus to upload just a vid

Quiz:D

QUIZ
1.Besides your lips,where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
S-shoulder area or neck
2.How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
S-lost,emotional,tired,stress
3.Who was the last person you took a photo with?
S-my friend
4.Would you consider yourself to be spoilt?
S-nope
5.Would you ever donate blood?
S-yes,absoulutely!
6.Have you ever had a best friend who is of the oppsite sex?
S-Yeah:D
7.Do you want someone dead?
S-No
8.What does your last text message say?
S-i forgot
9.What are you thinking of right now?
S-Him
10.Do you wish someone was with you right now?
S-Yeah
11.What time did you go to sleep last night?
S-2plus in the morning
12.where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
S-i'm wearing a jacket,Lol
13.Is someone on your mind right now?
S-yes
14.Who was the last person who text you?
S-Josh:D
15.what is your fav colour?
S-Orange:}
Why do you do this quiz?
S-I'm bored,Hahah

Hey peeps:D
i took a video yesterday night.
its about things i wanna tell him
i know its stupid
Who cares!!:D
Hahah
here,enjoy!



Sorry i deleted the video

I'm clearing the air with a fart

Hey!
I'm back blogging.
Thats because i feel like i want to,Hahah
Well,reccently i've watched alot of video blogging
Its cool
maybe i will try it:}
its maybe
so i might not try it.
And also,i'm indulging in bohemian and hippie hairdos
its cool
I tried one,its pretty messy at first but it gets better after practice:}
And its recommended for people with really long hair
And there's another one,its called fishtail braid
Here's the video:}
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OUNHs1AytiU
Oh oh,and i LOVE katy perry.
She's so pretty and her voice,Uh,breath-taking:}
Hahah,random me:}
Yup,And i seriously needs SHOPPING!!
Sigh...
The thing is i've used up my savings
I'll have to ask my dad for it:}
So yup,thats about it
Enjoy:}